Jefferson Davis to Sarah Knox Taylor
Fort Gibson [Arkansas Territory] Dec 16th 1834
Tis strange how superstitious intense feeling renders us. but
stranger still what aids chance sometimes brings to support our
superstition, dreams my dear Sarah we will agree are our weakest
thoughts, and yet by dreams have I been latly almost crazed, for they were of you and the sleeping
immagination painted you not such as I left you, not such as I could
like and see you, for you seemed a sacrifice to your parents desire the
bride of a wretch that your pride and sense equally compelled you to
despise, and a [illegible] creature here, telling the on dits of the day
at St Louis said you were "about to be married to a Doctor Mc" a poor
devil who served with the Battalion of Rangers possibly you may have
seen him--but last night the vision was changed you were at the house of
an Uncle in Kentucky, Capt [Samuel] Mcree was walking with you when I
met you he left you and you told me of your Father [Zachary Taylor] and
of yourself almost the same that I have read in your letter to night.
Kind, dear letter, I have kissed it often and it has driven many mad
notions from my brain. Sarah whatever I may be hereafter I will ascribe
to you. Neglected by you I should be worse than nothing and if the few
good qualities I possess shall under your smiles yield a fruit it will
be your's as the grain is the husbandman's.
It has been a soure productive of regret with me that our union must
seperate you from your earliest and best friends, a test to which the
firmness of very few are equal, though giddy with passion or bouant by
the hope of reconciliation there be many who brave it, from you I am
prepared to expect all that intellect and dignified pride brings, the
question as it has occured to you is truly startling Your own answer is
the most grattifying to me, is that which I should expected from you,
for as you are the first with whom I ever ought to have one fortune so
you would be the last from whom I would expect desertion. When I wrote
to you I supposed you did not intend soon to return to Kentucky. I
approve entirely of your preference to a meeting elsewhere than at
Prarie-du-Chien and your desire to avoid any embarrassment might widen
the breach made already cannot be greater than my own, did I know when
you would be at St Louis I could meet you there. At all events we meet
in Kentucky. Shall we not soon meet Sarah to part no more? oh! how I
long to lay my head upon that breat which beats in unison with my own,
to turn from the sickening sights of worldly duplicity and look in those
eyes so eloquent of purity and love. Do you remember the "hearts ease"
you gave me, it is bright as ever--how very gravely you ask leave to ask
me a question. My dear girl I have no secrets from you, have a right to
ask me any question without an apology. Miss Bullitt did not give me a
guard for a watch but if she had do you supose I would have given it to Capt
Mccree. But Ill tell you what she did give me, [manuscript torn] most
beautifell and lengthy lecture on my and your charms, the which
combined, once upon an evening at a "fair" in Louisville, as she was one
of the few subjects of conversation we had apart from ourselves on that
evening you can & I have left you to guess what beside a
sensibility to your charms constituted my offence. the reporters were
absent and the speech I made is lost.
Pray what manner of messages could la belle Elvin have sent you
concerning me? I supose no attempt to destroy harmony. I laughed at her
demonstrations against the attachment existing between myself a
subaltern of Dragoons but that between you and I is not fair, gains it
is robbing to make another poor, but No! She is too discerning to
attempt a thing so difficult and in which sucess would be valueless.
"Miss Elizabelth one very handsome; lady" Ah; Knox what did you put that
semicolon between handsome and lady for? I hope you find in the society
of the Prarie enough to amuse if not to please The griefs over which we
weep are not those to be dreaded. It is the little pains the constant
falling of thy drops of care which wear away the heart, I join you in
rejoicing that Mrs McCree is added to your society. I admire her more
than any one else you could have had Since I wrote to you we have
abandoned the position in the Creek Nation and are constructing quarters
at Ft Gibson
My lines like the beggars days are dwindling to the shortest span.
Write to me immediately My dear Sarah My betrohed No formality is proper
between us. Adieu Ma chere tres chere amie adieu au Recrire
Jeffn.
From The Papers of Jefferson Davis, Volume 1, pp. 345-47.
Transcribed from a privately owned original. This is the only known
surviving piece of correspondence between Davis and Taylor.